Hi everyone! I feel like I haven’t posted a blog with my name attached to it in so long.. I like to contribute more elsewhere I guess ;) First of all I want to say – Hi I’m Emma, Kristy’s 23 year old daughter! Many of you may be new and not know who I am or why I’m here.
I work with my mom full-time as her creative director, but I’m a jack of all trades. Some days you may find me behind the camera taking shots of my mom wearing cute outfits, answering e-mails, helping style photoshoots, crafting up delicious recipes, making collages/boutiques/roundups of everything from fashion to furniture to jewelry, and more. Yes this is a DREAM job for me! I am such a creative at heart and I’ve always dreamed of doing things along these lines, so it is a blessing that my mom decided to take a risk and snag me as her partner in crime. I was her first hire, and it has been so much fun helping my mom turn this passion into a business.
Working with my mom has obviously been so much fun, but I don’t want to get into all of that today. Today I actually want to dive into a tougher topic that I know I must do for so many reasons..
Let’s Go Back…
Me and my best friend maddy at a concert
So… let’s rewind the clock back to January, 2013, when I was a senior in high school. I decided that I wanted to lose around 25 lbs and.. I did (and I looked amazing). But the problem with it was that I lost it in a completely unhealthy way. It was through a fad diet and the weight loss lasted months.. but when I began college in the fall of 2013 my healthy habits began to slip.
I left for Arizona State University and I lived in the dorms. Like many typical freshman girls who lived without real kitchens, I ate so unhealthy. Plus, I fell out of the habit of going to the gym often, which didn’t help counter all of the junk food and alcohol (sorry mom) I was consuming. Basically, I fell completely off the wagon and gave in to everything. I ate whatever I wanted, whenever – and never worked out. Clearly that wasn’t the best idea for someone who wanted to maintain my weight. I was also completely overwhelmed by being in a sorority, school, having a long-distance boyfriend, parents living in a different state, and living on my own for the first time.
I gained around 20 lbs that first year of college, and never really got my momentum back. I’ve steadily continued to gain weight throughout college and until this last year – it didn’t really bother me too much up to a point.
Until I realized I couldn’t climb a flight of stairs without huffing and puffing. Or when I went to go put on that ‘medium’ sized top – it wouldn’t even go over my head. I couldn’t fit into anything in my closet besides workout wear. I couldn’t even look in the mirror, because I didn’t recognize my own body & face.
And you guys. The photos above are from last year. I don’t even have any photos of myself from 2018 on… I can’t believe I let myself go this far. It’s so hard to admit to yourself that you have a problem – but I know I can finally admit it. I could scream it from the rooftops: I NEED HELP!
I stopped caring about my appearance. For all of you who may follow my Instagram, or when my mom talks about me on Instagram (I always ask my mom never to show me on stories) because I always looked a mess. Hair frazzled, no makeup, yoga pants, shirt, and a girl who felt awkward in her own skin. Yet I couldn’t stop eating junk food, was too lazy to work out, and basically just gave up. It can be hard.. I go to school full-time, work full-time, and… any time for myself? I basically zoom to the nearest fast-food center, and zoom home to jump in bed and sleep.
Well… guess what guys. Things are changing around here.
I decided that I want to feel and look better. And in order to do that, I need to start being accountable for everything in my life that I’ve been neglecting. A really great way to start is to tell thousands of people, like you. Because now I know that maybe… even just by one of you saying: “hey… I feel the same way. and I want to live a healthier life too!” I will feel SO much better and work that much harder.
But really.. I’m going to do this. And I’ve started by becoming inspired. I’m inspired by those who just get up every morning and do it. They don’t make excuses, they just do it. Like Miss Remi Ashten who is a hugely popular youtuber – she started her own healthy lifestyle journey last fall. She has now lost over 50 lbs and looks amazing.
Where is this all going?
I think we all can relate a little – when you aren’t putting yourself first, things can get hairy and priorities will probably slip. I think by me opening up just a little about what’s going on with me will help me stay focused and driven with my goals.
I want to share my healthy lifestyle journey with all of you. I’m going to eat healthier and workout regularly. But I just want to be real with you. I want to share more of myself with you guys on the blog and IG (My mom always wants me to be on and I was always too insecure to go there). But I think it will be really good for me to step outside of my comfort zone and start sharing different things that I’m loving/healthy routines/recipes/workouts.. whatever!
For now I’m just going to leave it at that.. but thanks for letting me open up to all of you. :)
Til next time,